But by the time we met
By the time we met the times had already changed
May always says that i look like i live in my own world and have my own thing going on. I never really thought about it until a few days ago and realised that she does have a point. I guess until recently my world consisted of me and only me but now the population went up a bit. I'm not ignorant to current issues, you'll actually be surprised how updated i am but i guess I'm sometimes soo deep in my thoughts that i don't actually care about everything else. It happens. I remember just sitting on my bed thinking for hours
Being in my own world means that I am very close to very few people. So when we hang out it always feels like there's this bubble we are in. I have a lot of friends but i have very few close friends. There's always a wall in the beginning but with the right people it goes down. Many people might view me as an open book and for a very long time i thought i was until i realize they only see the surface.
Relationship wise i am the same. That's why I don't actually get into relationship. Because (and this is not trying to be cliche) not many will get why i think the way i do . I remember the last one, we were constantly in this bubble and no one would get it.Even when we'd go out it felt like that. I guess that's why it was so intense. It's really hard for me to fall but when i do i fall hard cause you know, I let someone in to my world and when they leave you'll feel so vulnerable and broken. And i do give it my all... As all capricorns do :) Again i always do fall the odd ones. The thing is i never find my was,maybes and could haves odd though everyone else did. Cause no one is actually weird they just need a lil more time to understand than most people. I used to think Spike was my soulmate from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, so it's pretty much set that I'm doomed for many tragic romance. lol
I guess this whole world thing started as a defense mechanism. Cause I got so annoyed with people telling me how to do things right and stuff and what's normal. So you know when your in your own world normal is what you make of it. And i am a very awkward person in general and as May puts "i have many akward habits and i tend to make situations more awkward than it already is", so it's nice not to feel different. I remember me telling my dad something and he said "how about try normal for a change"... I don't know how i turned out so different from my brothers... Lolz... I inherited all my habits from my dad....
Being in my own world means that I am very close to very few people. So when we hang out it always feels like there's this bubble we are in. I have a lot of friends but i have very few close friends. There's always a wall in the beginning but with the right people it goes down. Many people might view me as an open book and for a very long time i thought i was until i realize they only see the surface.
Relationship wise i am the same. That's why I don't actually get into relationship. Because (and this is not trying to be cliche) not many will get why i think the way i do . I remember the last one, we were constantly in this bubble and no one would get it.Even when we'd go out it felt like that. I guess that's why it was so intense. It's really hard for me to fall but when i do i fall hard cause you know, I let someone in to my world and when they leave you'll feel so vulnerable and broken. And i do give it my all... As all capricorns do :) Again i always do fall the odd ones. The thing is i never find my was,maybes and could haves odd though everyone else did. Cause no one is actually weird they just need a lil more time to understand than most people. I used to think Spike was my soulmate from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, so it's pretty much set that I'm doomed for many tragic romance. lol
I guess this whole world thing started as a defense mechanism. Cause I got so annoyed with people telling me how to do things right and stuff and what's normal. So you know when your in your own world normal is what you make of it. And i am a very awkward person in general and as May puts "i have many akward habits and i tend to make situations more awkward than it already is", so it's nice not to feel different. I remember me telling my dad something and he said "how about try normal for a change"... I don't know how i turned out so different from my brothers... Lolz... I inherited all my habits from my dad....
So when you tired of not being like everyone else and you cant change , now you know what to do :)
Cause it won't rain if you don't want it to when you have your own place in your head
Recovery is going okay. I sense a relapse though
:(
oh well
Parsley Monster
Cause it won't rain if you don't want it to when you have your own place in your head
Recovery is going okay. I sense a relapse though
:(
oh well
Parsley Monster
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