Today I woke up with a rather shitty feeling.
I had this weird awkward dream about parsley monster. It's useless for me to write about it because it doesn't even make sense in my head. But there was this moment that stuck in my mind. We were in a corridor, the two weird spy people were leaving through the back and parsley monster was walking away the opposite direction. I remember standing in the middle really wanting to follow parsley monster but i was scared he'll be like what are u doing...? So i stood there and watched. Then as he turned to look back i looked into his eyes and they were this gleaming green colour , he gave this half smile from the side. And all i did was stood in the middle. All i was thinking was why am i not following him. So i stood there, gave a smile and then there was fog.
since it has been a long time since i actually truly had feelings for someone.
I only vividly remember my recovering process
This is pretty much it. I'll be in my own zone for a while, there will be many dreams, questions and there will be times when i think I'm over it but somehow it creeps back in and i am not. At which i will probably go and drown myself with a new book and fantasize about the hero oh and tons of my music. Eventually, slowly, i'll regain a sense of sanity and be alright! It's a long and miserable process. But again i always said i embrace the pains of life. I guess it's just something i have to go through. It sucks but at least there's a lesson in all this. And hopefully karma will be nicer to me in the future.
The thing that does piss me off is the fact i am so emotional. I mean why the hell did i even get myself suck into this. I have to be more careful with people and their words. And the saddest part is that i could mean that little to him, and he is this enormous thought for me.
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